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Alive.

2012-02-11T14:18:00.003+08:00

Holiday isn't so boring anymore. I love life. :)

Realize that I really really REALLY need to make use of this month. Since it's like.. the end of.. stuff. Though I'm STILL hoping for miracles. Weird.

Today I've learnt a lesson that waking up early rocks. After forcing to stay awake for 1-2 hours, the thought of "I'll have a good rest when I'm free later" immediately disappear. And you'll feel 10000 times fresher than ever. So my next mission, is to wake up early - everyday :P

Yeah, easy to say.

But one thing to be disappointed about - I haven't tidy my room ever since ever.

Because I don't like to move. I know I won't finish it in 1-2 days or maybe even forever. The amount of things distracting me while tidying is like... urgh. And I don't even know where to keep them/ whether to throw them. :/

I need a room-tidy expert -,- if that ever exist.

Maybe I should watch some dramas nowwww. And to you, YES YOU! I love you ♥ x)

Hello。

2012-02-08T15:04:00.002+08:00

Ever since I reactivate my Tumblr and moved everything there, I've never been blogging. Not even here, not even Tumblr. Because every time I want to blog, I tend to be indecisive about which blog site should I post at. So I think I've made my decision. I THINK I'll just keep blogging at blogger, and just do the repost at Tumblr because.... that's what Tumblr does..? I think so :P

Second month is here! Which means the days left in Kuantan is getting lesser and lesser. The form is STILL not filled, maybe I'm hoping for more miracles to come which doesn't seem like there is any for now. Oh well.

Life is like in its new level. Not to say a better level, but probably something new. Somehow I felt different even though I didn't do anything whole day. I've never really feel SUPER BORED. But if you ask me, I can't really tell you how I use my time. Time just pass. I know I'll definitely regret not doing something special during this month but....

yeah, how can I complete that sentence.

I'm not working I'm not studying. I'm practically free 24/7.

Anyone with crazy plans, count me in. I.. have no ideas of plans so, I'm just gonna be the follower. (yucks)

Blog moved :D

2012-01-09T20:15:00.001+08:00

I'm here to announce that I've officially moved this blog to Tumblr :)

http://suexian.tumblr.com/ here's the link :)

But I won't be closing down this blog because.. I somehow still like it :P

2012 yo!

2012-01-03T15:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! It's finally the year that I thought will never come. Nah just kidding, I don't believe in world end or the freaky 2012 movie, cause no one knows the actual time but God :)

I know this is too late to say since it's already page 3 of 366, but it's better than never saying it right? So here's something different than my usual bye-bye-xxxx-year-and-hello-new-year post, it's not because I didn't want to post them but I just didn't have the time and my lovely computer had gone mad. Now I'm actually using iPad so it's so annoying when it KEEPS REPEATING WHAT I TYPE! Grrrrrr...

But still to conclude last year, 2011 was one of the best years in my life. I've grown, learned, and enjoyed everyday of it :) and thanks to everyone that had contribute to that lovely year. Whether I know you, am close to you, or do not know you at all, each of you stll played a role in my life. So thank you! :D Most importantly , I wanna thank God for guiding me throughout the year. I had some bad times dealing with some problems with other people, the annoying gastric that attacked me the most last year, and the hard time studying like mad for the last major exam in secondary school.

So January is here, new year is here! I'm excited for what's to come, and believing that everything will be at its best, cause God will always plan the best for us! :)

Could I BE more lazy?

2011-12-27T15:54:00.002+08:00

If you're a fan of the TV show Friends, you'll know how to say my title in the correct tone.

Hello people, my computer is no longer here with me so I'm dead bored. I know I got lots to do, lots to read, lots to tidy.. but, let's not continue this sentence.

Christmas and boxing day is over! So it means that 2011 is coming to an end, a sad end. I'm excited for 2012, but also scared for what's up next. In this three months, let's hope I'll change 180 degrees to the better. :)

And to change for a better, I'm leaving now. Bye :)

2011-12-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS :)

Holidays.

2011-12-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone! Reporting from KL. :D Using this iMac thingy which really confuse me. No it's not mine. But there's nothing I can do other than.. this. So yeah :)

It suddenly hit me that it's already holidays. I know right, what a slow brain I'm having. And this time it isn't just a normal holiday. It's the forever-holiday. The holiday I've been looking forward to ever since.. 5 years ago -,-

I know I have A LOT to do. And when I say a lot, I mean A LOT. To me, this is the time when life should begin. Not only playing and fun but REAL things. At least things that are REAL to me. It's when things more important than SPM, things more exciting than SPM, even things scarier than SPM, and most importantly things that I love love love sooo much that it cant even be compared to SPM. It all starts here. But look at me, I'm not moving yet.

As usual, the question is when. I've always asked. Sometimes I think I'm too afraid to face that's why I just skipped that question. Never really thought about it till now, when I know I need to face it, and it's really gonna happen.

I don't know what's coming up next. But I need courage.. and many more things to face a lot of things. Well, actually now I'm talking about one particular thing.
Let's hope everyone understands. :)

Settled.

2011-12-20T18:50:00.009+08:00

I'm kinda late. But it's never too late to say that I love my secondary school life. :)

I know it's officially over like long time ago. But I still haven't really.. thought about it. I mean, over? That's hard to believe.

SMKAA has been the school that I've been complaining about since forever. The system, the headmistress and even some of the teachers. And sometimes, the students too. I always thought that why can't we mix together instead of having different kind of gangs everywhere. But then I was wrong. The problem is not with everyone. It's with me.

I'm afraid of awkward, afraid of being myself in front of unfamiliar people (which is like ... everyone ). So turns out I don't really have much friends. Not to mention best friends. But in this 5 years, I've learned a lot. Not enough to make me mature but at least better than before.

where it all begins - 2007

Choir 2007

I know right, I don't even know where I get these pictures.

2008

I wasn't really welcomed in this class but I had my sweet memories there :)

And how can I forget one of our best choir years <3 :)

which leads to how we met <3

-was searching for 2009 pictures but I couldn't find any nice group ones. Guess we were all busy with PMR LOL-

our best victory.

I don't think I can ever forget any of the years in my school. Cause every year was eventful and meaningful. I've met many different kinds of people, know many of them, got close to people who I never thought I would ever talk to, and even lose people who I never thought I would lost. I guess life is just like that. We never know what's coming next. But every single happenings is a lesson by God. And I'm thankful for everything :)

I love God. I love my family. I love him. I love my friends.

enough said.

tada! :)

IN NEED DRAMA SERIES

2011-12-11T20:31:00.002+08:00

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!

Freedumb.

2011-12-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEdumb!

I'm a bit (VERY) late. But that's because blog has no longer become my priority. Iｒｅａｌｉｚｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｉｈａｖｅ　ｍａｎｙ　ｏｔｈｅｒ　ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ　ｔｏ　ｄｏ．example, make sure that chinese star is not turned on when writing a blog so that the words won't go all weird.

That's much better.

So if you're close with me or know me well, you would know what have I gone through for that one whole month. SPM was something that I've been waiting for it to be over ever since.. ever. The end of SPM will be the end of everything - as a secondary school student. So going through it wasn't easy. I know SPM is just that little small or not even a dot thing in this whole life. But after all, there's still the need to put effort in it and do your best in it. I know I haven't been doing my best, I know I could have done better but I have no regrets :)

I can't be more thankful to get through this. I know that there's more than enough people who is supporting me and helping me with this. God was there for every second and even before/after spm - till forever. My parents are the best for not giving me any stress or pressure and not wanting me to achieve whatsoever good result. We all know it's not gonna help much in future, cause there's no suitable scholarship - at least for me there isn't. My teachers for teaching, guiding, helping and being worried over that small incident. -.- We all know all teachers are good. And yes, to YOU, for the everyday and every moment of never giving up :) I seriously have no idea how you study and why is study fun to you but that's how you make me feel guilty for not studying - and that's why i did study ( a little bit :P ). I love you, enough said. ♥ :)

Now it's over.

means I'm free. - officially :)

I won't post the list of things to do during this holidays cause that would be.. idk. But the more awesome thing is I'm not in the first batch for NS so I'm skipping it for good :) 3 months of holidays.. oh gawd, it's just like summer.

But a even bigger and scarier thing, I have a mission to do after SPM. Not easy, never gonna be easy. But I can't never do it. And by doing it, I'll be even way free(er) than how I am right now. Let's hope everything goes well, right? :) ♥

The truth is, I have a lot a lot a lot a looooooooooooottttttttttttt to talk about but I don't wanna blog about it. Maybe next time when I feel like it - or never.

Conclusion is - Life is great. And it will be better in the days to come. ♥ Appreciate. Love. Live.

November ♥

2011-11-05T19:28:00.002+08:00

Maybe a little too slow for this but still -

HAPPY NOVEMBER :)

Been busy but too relaxing than I should be. By right I shouldn't even sit in front of this computer, touch my iPod or update any blog post because I know I'm very not ready for the war. Very very, not even 2% there. No joke. I have this freaky feeling every single day and by now I still cannot imagine what will happen on the 14th of November, in that hall, with that paper.

*shivers* It's scarier than ghost movies :S

Nothing much is going on in my life now. It's all about studying and waiting for the day when everything ends for good.

I think it's for good

So good bye

Last minute preparation

2011-10-15T19:10:00.002+08:00

Officially one month - 1 day left till SPM! And I'm freaking out because I have no idea how to get through this!

To be more positive, it's less than 2 months away till after-SPM! The biggest happiest thing ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... well not really.

Used to get very hyped up about it but now it seems that I have no time at all. Screw NS. So it's like even if I keep studying mad until SPM is over, I still can't rest like there's no tomorrow. The saddest part isn't about resting but leaving. All the farewells is going to happen fast D: And everything is going to be so new. I wonder if any of us ever will keep in touch and still be real close. Sounds impossible.

There's always a goodbye. So why not appreciate now. I shall go and appreciate study today. Bye.

Kidding. I'm not gonna study now. Bye.

Dreams.

2011-10-10T11:12:00.002+08:00

Remember those times when we were young? Being whoever you want is like never gonna be a problem. We have that strong faith, that strong believe and nothing seems impossible at all. Even fairy tales were true, and life was simple, and nothing could ever stop us from chasing our dreams.

But humans grow up, and that's when life became more realistic. The more obstacles we have, the weaker our faith got. The will of holding on gets so weak you even wonder whether you can make it. Life got complicated and you realize it isn't all just about you. And nothing seems easy, nothing is possible. It's all just a dream and it's time to wake up and face reality. I believe any form 5(ers) who said they have no idea what to become and what to study in the future is a lie. You all have dreams, but you think it's just too impossible and too ridiculous to think that way. (right?)
I had that.
Many times.
People never really know me. Everyone thinks I'm just naive, and I do things because it's fun. It's not just fun, it's more than just loving, it's the passion. I used to want to give up really bad until I realize what lies deep inside me. I held on to it again, and I kept going. It's been 17 years and practically, I lived to achieve my dream. And my parents are the one who taught me everything. They are the ones who made me believe more. Dream big, nothing is impossible.

Somehow, it's not that easy.

Sorry to have to give up. Sorry to think that simple, sorry that I'm not matured enough to accept that it's not gonna happen. Why, it's the first time I said that in 17 years. Things will be different. And maybe I'll only be the one knowing how different it will be. But sometimes life is all about sacrificing. You can't have all at once. Never.

Times like this, I look up to God. I don't know what's the future gonna be like, but I need You to guide me. Cause everything seems blurry as I've lost my direction. I need Your help, Lord. To seek for a better path, the path You chose for me..
Thank You, at least I still believe in You :)

Dream big, nothing is impossible

THE BEST OF THE BEST XD

2011-10-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

안녕하세요!

이제 내 남자친구의 스토리 공게습니다! :)

이제 난 첨 한국어를 브러크 원전 사융예요. 아.. 사실 정말 고통. 근데, 남자친구때문에 난 괜찮아 :P

그사람이 너무 귀엽하고 멋지네요. 난 그사람 아주 사랑해. 많이많이 사랑합니다! :)) ♥♥♥

우리 사우하지만, 난 이작 그사람 사랑해. ♥

OKAY TYPING IN KOREAN IS HARD.

I've been having many "kerenah(s)" lately (HAHA) and this post is to someone who never gave up on the full of kerenah girl.

you can say it's a thank you post, or a whatever post. But it's something positive.

for now,

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND LET'S GO GET SOME ICE-CREAM TOGETHER!

Okay no, kidding. Would be great too, I really miss having ice cream XD

Last but not least

YOU ROCK! :D

Oh sorry, did i say last?

How can anything be last? if it's with you. :P

I love you and I know you do too :) ♥ i love you more than what you say! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

The Last of the Best.

2011-10-09T21:00:00.008+08:00

Before you start reading, I have to warned you to think before you do. I'm sorry if this is offending, but please let me do this for the last time in a long time. Thank you.

It's 09102011, the Last of The Best performance from the WorldStar just ended not long ago.It's his last time performing before his military service, streets in Gangnam are closed down because of him. And indeed, I know he put on his best show tonight ♥

I've been a Cloud for 6 years. Ever since Rain's World album, and when his first concert in Malaysia was a big issue in year 2007, I started learning more about this man who wasn't just the guy who put on great performances on stage but more.

The difference between Rain and other artist is that you can actually feel him on stage. The passion, the enjoyment, and all the hard work behind. It's him who made me believe that hard work pays more than talent. He is indeed one of the most discipline person ever.

Me posting this isn't because of boasting him or saying how great blah blah awesome he is (though he really is :P), I just wanted to say something before the end comes till 2013. Rain isn't just about his looks or talent, Rain is all about the story behind it, the person he truly is. That's what touched us Clouds. So the person I want to talk about is not Rain, but a normal human named Jung Ji Hoon ♥

It wasn't an easy road coming all the way here. No one knows the suffers and pain he went through. With all the legal issues that crappy people can't stop crapping about, with having to deal with the pain of losing his own mother, and to be the person who started from having nothing at all.

He never forgets where he came from and what brought him to where he is. It takes a lot of sacrifice to achieve what he had. He gave all a person need in his 20s to a guy named Rain. Though he's a well-known world star, yet he's the most humble person ever.

Ji Hoon (sounds weird using this name) pushes limits to everything. Things that people say it's impossible, yet he went for it and succeed. He was first a singer.

Then went for an actor.

After achieving what he got, he left JYPE and had his own company.

Later on he started a fashion line.

And conquered Hollywood.

Lastly he produced 5 loving boys named MBLAQ ♥

I'm not a K-pop freak. I don't know much about other groups or news or whatever hot issues happening in Korea. But I'm a true Cloud. Rain brought me to know more about Korea and learn Korean. He brought me to know MBLAQ. And I believe they will be as good as him one day :)

K-pop is ruling the world. All kinds of boy bands, girl groups blah blah blah debuted like nobody's business. But it's really hard to deny that Rain was the one of the first few who brought Kpop alive. He was the first Korean singer who became and international artist. Accept it, he is Korea's pride - always and forever.

Unfortunately, he's still a Korean.

That day was shocking. We knew it would happen, but never so fast. The last concert in Seoul was very touching and emotional. Yes, all Clouds will miss him, but the fact is he needs our support more. And he is the one who will be giving up the most.

Thank you for this 10 years and all the 120 concerts. 10042011 will be the day I will never forget.

Rain Live in Sepang (F1 GrandPrix concert)

And I'm looking forward to more unforgettable days in the future. During these two years when you're gone, we Clouds will be waiting for you till the day you return. We couldn't express how proud you made us feel. Thank you :)

지훈오빠, 우리 구름들 영원히 오빠가 지원예요. 10년 동안 너무 갑사합니다. 이제 구름은 또다른 비의 시대를 설레이며 기다릴겠습니다. 오빠, 사랑햅니다 ♥

구름들 심장에 비만 기억합니다 :)

The weird one.

2011-10-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hi, my name is shoo shan. And I would like to talk about myself.

maybe next time.

Btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY THUNDER :) ♥

And btow ( by the other way ),

i miss you D:

♥

October♥

2011-10-02T18:47:00.002+08:00

It's another month! Say hello to October! :D

Sensing tortures in this month but it's okay, cause I know I'll get through all of the shit hard times :)

I have actually a long list to do in October. 99% of them involves studying for my last examination in my secondary school life. But I'm not neglecting that 1% left. ~~It involves having fun, partying, going out with all my ♥ people and being upset till 11th of October.~~

Seriously, I'm just kidding, especially the last one -,-.

Talking / thinking a lot a lot alooooooooooooooot about future these days. I'm still blank about it. Yes, I do have dreams. But.. I dont know. It's not that I'm not chasing them, I just don't know how should I start to chase them. It's like, everywhere and I have no starting point at all. I don't trust Malaysia's education but yet I don't really want to leave like *snap*, now.

Now is so... instant.

and it's scary.

After all I'm still 17 and I am not even having the maturity of a 17 year old girl. pfffft.

Without being more confused, I decided to just go with the flow. AND, I'll do everything once the exam is over.

I'll just study, for now. :) ~~and play at the same time~~

Because I'm addicted to Vampire Diaries, I'm leaving this post short. Bye :D

Time.

2011-09-24T19:53:00.003+08:00

I'M SORRY FOR LEAVING MY BLOG FOR LIKE 10 YEARS D:

yes i'm using hyperbola. i'm so gonna score in English. (pfft)

Blogging used to be the main reason why I came online. I like to blog but it's just that, I feel that's nothing really different to blog about these days since it's.. always the same thing all over again.

So September is coming to an end. Trials are over but the actual exam is just around the corner. Speaking about trials, I'm not quite happy with what I got even though I knew it would turn out this way. Sad to say it's the last time sitting for exam in my secondary school life, at least the last exam that shows your true result. And for the last final time, I can't manage to achieve the target that I wanted. And it succcccccccccckkkkkkkkksssssssssss *enough said*

And these days I've been wondering a lot about after-spm time. I should be happy, but somehow, I feel more sadness than excitement. Come to think of it, I actually dont have much time to play/enjoy/spend time with all my loved ones after SPM. Or even after NS. How great if NS never exist :( Once college start, there's no turning back.

Worse is, I dont even know where should I go after Form 5 D:

Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnddddddddddd,

to talk about MORE sadness,

Guess what,

the day has finally (gonna) come for us.

RAIN WILL BE ENLISTS ON THE 11TH OF OCTOBER.

His last official concert will be held tomorrow at Seoul. And I'm in Malaysia.

Sucks.

No one will ever know how it feels - unless you're a Cloud yourself which I dont see that coming because none of my friends are Cloud. I dont even dare to think what will happen the day before. Or the day itself. It's a complete 2 years without new Rain's songs/videos/drama/movies or whatever.

And to not be more depressed,

I shall not continue.

Maybe continue on the day itself. If I have the strength :O

Talking about the gooooooooooood things in life,

Life has been treating me GOOD :D

No special reason :) In fact, it doesnt NEED to have a special reason. What do I got less? I have family, friends, and the best YOU :D ♥

Life is indeed complete and awesome.

God is providing everything for me. :) ♥

I shall now move on to VampireDiaries :) Good bye. I hope to be more active here again lol.

♥사랑해 사랑해 사랑한다♥

2011-08-25T21:14:00.002+08:00

I'm finally blogging! :D

But it's just gonna be a short one for now.

it's the last day of school for me before hols start. But instead of enjoying, there's much suffering to go through. I can't believe trials is just a week away. A week. How am I suppose to finish everything in a week!?

Crazy :O

Let's just say I'm not afraid. Cause I'm not alone.

Despite all the shit I'm going through, life is still great.

With you :) ♥

So after all,

life is awesome! :D

♥ ^^

=70']5^7-<\4]"%7)2?[0\ ^^

♥♥♥ :)

Cry ♥

2011-08-07T15:04:00.002+08:00

Nope, I'm not crying. I'm listening to a song named Cry. A beautiful song that makes people cry. Not because it's sad, but because it's too beautiful. :) ♥
No, it's not a Rihanna song, or a Mandy Moore song, or James Blunt's.
Well, guess it yourself.

Randomly read my January posts and I realized how much I miss Form 4 D:. I guess later on I'll miss Form 5 but well, not now. Definitely not now. Cause it's the critical study phase that I have to go through. The worst part is - I'm not starting that phase yet when everyone is ahead of me :O

It's Sunday.
This weekend seems gloomy don't cha think? :/ No one to hang out with or things to do. I'm just stuck with iPod and computer. Which makes me think a lot a lot a lot.
I think I should Google how to stop thinking.

It's time to think of the future.
I'm afraid of the future.
I'm afraid.. to grow up.

♥

2011-07-30T23:27:00.001+08:00

Before the night ends,
every moment of it always rock ♥ :)
and you know why! :D

♥ ♥ ♥ :)
4%7)20!-#2222222222
:D

IT ALL ENDS.

2011-07-30T21:34:00.002+08:00

It's the end of an era.
Face it.

HARRY POTTER HAS COME TO AN END, BELIEVE IT OR NOT!?

So not!

We all have to admit it that Harry Potter is our childhood. Everyone of us grew up with them. But the sad thing is, everything has to end and nothing last forever. And now it's time for this legend to end, which also means, our childhood to end :O

Harry Potter has taught me so much. It has taught me that ugly people eventually dies in the end, and that even if you dont have a nose, you can at least survive for a while.
Great lessons. (Y)

Without crapping further more, I shall now announce that Harry Potter is (Y). I've watched The Deathly Hallows Part 2 two times now. And every single time I watched it, it brings tears and also the memories of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer' s Stone. Oh those times.
Right now, I'm having the urge to watch every movie and read every book again.
But dang it I lost my first book.

If you DON'T watch/ read Harry Potter, START DOING IT NOW!

**
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,
back to life!

Now, I've been keeping myself away from the net for 3 days due to some reasons. I just cannot accept the fact that trials is coming and that SPM is this year for me. Oh and also the fact that I'm going to NS after SPM -_-.
Not, YET - accepting them.

But here's a thing about life :
they never care whether you LIKE it, or you NEVER accept it,
THEY WILL EVENTUALLY HAPPEN.
So why not make the best out of it?

There's only few months of sufferings to go, then I'll be all free until.. Until beginning of next year/ end of this year.

So let's NOT put the fun away, but STUDY SMART at the same time!
Who's with me!? :)

♥ ♥ ♥

2011-07-22T23:31:00.002+08:00

Busy busy busy.
Two tuitions back-to-back.

And during days like these, a little chat at night is all I need :) ♥

It completes the day! :D ♥
i love you :)

I AM A HAPPY GIRL TODAY !! ^^ ♥♥

A great start ♥

2011-07-02T22:02:00.004+08:00

It's the second day of July! ♥ :D

And to be honest, I did not expect it to be a great day. But guess what, I just had my complete outing with my classmates for the whole day and it was (Y)! :D I don't remember how many places have we been. Okay I remember but I just love to exaggerate everything. We had cooking lessons at home and also some undiscovered cooking talent from the guys. Great time :D I can't remember the last time I went on a full day outing. ^^ I feel so tempted to upload those photos but I guess it's better to upload them after everything's done.
And we'll hope and pray for the best out of everything ^^

So June is over. June is always like the best month of the year. To be honest, I was really really really unwilling to let it fly away. I dont know why but this year's June is like one of the scariest roller coaster ride ever. All the excitement, disappointment, awesomeness and happiness happens in June. I had many awesome moments/ events during June.
I think I'll remember 2011's June for life.

But actually come to think of it - nothing really happened lol.

I guess it's because of the few 2 or 3 times that everyone spent time together. Everyone as in all the people that I love ♥. Cause i realized I was best whenever any of those happened. It was never an easy thing, at least never for me. Not all of them get along well. That's why I dont get much chances on that. But I appreciate everyone. And whatsoever effort that any of you put to make me happy. :) Thank you :) ♥

I'm not gonna be greedy. It's enough. :)

JULY!!!!!!!

2011-07-01T23:53:00.002+08:00

HAVE I TOLD YOU THAT I'LL MISS JUNE?

IF I HAVENT, THEN I'LL TELL YOU NOW :

I'LL MISS JUNE!!!!!!!!!!!

Since it's a new month, let's make this post a little bit more meaningful/ very very much meaningful. :D Before the 2nd of July comes, I'll post a lovely meaningful post for the starting of July.

I HAVE AN AWESOME LOVELY SOMEONE WHO IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHENEVER WHEREVER AND WHATEVER :) AND I LOVE MY AWESOME LOVELY SOMEONE ^^ <3

<3 :)

life is indeed beautiful.
ily.
the end :)

ROOT STREAM HIGH CHOIR ♥

2011-06-26T21:21:00.002+08:00

I'm late to blog about this. Didn't actually thought of blogging about it but it's such a remarkable day and I HAVE TO BLOG ABOUT IT.

Before I say something, let's just say I'm a bad Fan due to some reason, I'll now wish Rain belated birthday on my blog.

HAPPY BELATED 30TH/29TH BIRTHDAY JUNG JI HOON! :)

Moving on,
RSH Choir team did not do well.

As expected, we were the runner-up this time. Not upset because we lost, but because of the performance and the attitude. It wasn't our best cause I felt so. The worst thing ever when you're joining a competition, cause there's no turning back.

This year's choir is sorta like a dead team. But thanks to competition, the day itself brought us alive together. The so called family feel did came back to me. And I know we'll bring this feeling further and further within, making miracles out of it :) I believe we can achieve the best this time, cause we'll give whatever we have :)

Sadlyyyyyyyyy, I did not take a lot of photos this time. And I'm lazy to actually post photos here so yeahhh.
All I want to say is, every year's RSH choir team rock my life. Especially 2008's.
how awesome will it be if we made it to nationals that year. ♥

Distance

2011-06-26T21:09:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU LAH OMG. -,-

............

2011-06-18T22:09:00.003+08:00

it's another post, and I think I CAN be a little bit down now.

I just read something.

it's actually a sentence.

JUST A SENTENCE.

But to me, it's an impactful sentence.

I'm not gonna say what sentence it is, but..

I REALLY WISH I CAN APPLY THAT SENTENCE IN MY REAL LIFE TOO.....................................

EVENTS EVENTS EVENTS!

2011-06-18T21:00:00.004+08:00

I'm gonna make this post a 99% happy and 1% emo!

Have I told you how GREAT is my Holiday!?

I'm gonna tell you right now!

MY HOLIDAY SUCKS!

just kidding :)

This is one of the most eventful holiday I've ever had in my life. Eventful with events, and not to forget - sickness too :) I may now declare that ever since the two days before holiday until now, I haven't been completely healthy. Glad that ALL I have now is just coughing, and it's getting better.

So the start of my holidays was a little depressing due to whatever I went through. I canceled canceled canceled and never stop cancelling plans. Plans that I've been looking forward like FOREVER. But still, with a sick body, I went to KL on the 2nd of June till 4th of June for Re:union :D

Sad stuff about it is how much I've left out from it. SERIOUSLY. I missed everyone workshop and Academy, so practically, I just went for P.A.R.T.Y. Cool stuffs. The message and worships were really, really, awesome. Most of them were like specially for me. Look how awesome God is! And guess what awesome thing comes next - just right after the last P.A.R.T.Y. night, I DID NOT, not even a single bit, felt sick the next day :DD PTL! ^^

Reached Kuantan on the 5th of June in the afternoon and go straight to JiaRock's house for some preparation of the event of the century.

I'm quite lazy to blog about this cause it's gonna be like LONGGGGGGGGGG but well, since it's the event of the century, I guess........................

GLAMFAME IS (Y).

*the above statement is not enough to describe GlamFame*

We've been preparing for this day for like, ever since forever. Started thinking about it since last year. Our first chat about it was in Cherating steak house and that was during Christmas! ( I still remember! ). By now it's still hard to believe it's over and gone! I can remember like every single detail of that day, from the moment I woke up and got that serious heart attack when I saw YJ's message, till the moment I woke up again the next day in Hyatt packing and leaving.

Everything is beyond great! *scrates hand :P*

That's an inner joke, don't ask :P

I have no idea how to blog about GF, but right here I just want to thank everyone.

Firstly is the good Lord who made this a success! Yes! Even with problems and obstacles that are IMPOSSIBLE to solve, we made it through because of Him :D. And the awesome organizer team for getting together and brain storming like mad because of GF. I can't believe what have we been through together :). Thanks to all the performers! The night is NOTHING with all of you people :D Then to sponsors and Hyatt. AND TO ALL THE ATTENDEES! IT WAS A GREAT NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

But specially thanks to YOU for supporting, and my parents for keep wanting to sponsor but I keep rejecting :P Have I ever mention how AWESOME is their support for my everything!?!? :)

I actually wanted to blog every detail along with pictures and all, but no, I'm not going to do that :). It will take ages and I'm so lazy to resize 10000 photos. (I'm just kidding, there ain't 10000 photos, there are about 987309 photos.)

(yes I'm kidding again)

So there you go, the event of the century.

Moving on the another event - SABS IU night :)

It was also a great night! :D It may be a little too late already but congratulations to committees! :) Stuff that made me regret is - I didnt have time to set my hair in both nights. :/ regretttttttt. But thank goodness my hair wasn't bombed during both nights :D

THENNNNN,

my not-so-surprise surprise birthday partayyy! :P

Firstly I want to apologize for not being surprise. Actually I was happy I wasn't surprise, cause, I'm not the surprise person. Surprise always lead to awkwardness, for me :O. I didn't know who was going but I definitely know something was on. Please don't blame yourself for not having good acting skills, I'm just too awesome that I guessed things right :P (nah).

But anywayyyyyyyyyy,

THANK YOU FOR PLANNING EVERYTHING :) <3

Like seriously, everything!

and thank you for everyone who came :D It was simple yet awesome awesome awesome awesome night! :) Something meaningful and worth remembering, something that brings back some memories that won't really come back.

And I actually never mind if it doesnt :).

So that's all you have for the holidays.

I am actually a little urgh today, but I'm not gonna complain, at least not here. Maybe in some other post or what :P

But to make this post 1% emo, I'll say something about it :

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I HAVE FAKERS BUT I'M TRYING MY BEST TO ACCEPT EVERYONE I CAN!!!!!!! :/

Done :D

JUNE IS AWESOME PIECE OF SHIT.

2011-06-11T00:21:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the harsh title.
I cant describe June.

Since I missed all the important dates on posting stuff, I'll now post something that just passed 22 minutes ago.

My feelings now, cannot be described.

I dont know.
Nothing to say.

I dont want to apologize in this post or make it some sort of emo thingy, so I'll leave it aside for now.

leave it aside forever.

Now is the time to give thanks.
I have everyone to thank to.
I thank the good Lord for such a life.
I thank you for everything.

Enough said,
thank you for whatever whenever however. I never wanted fancy stuff or big big thingy, or whatsoever.
I'd rather make normal days special. idkwhy.
but it was you who make some impossible stuff came true.

THANK YOU FOR PLANNING EVERYTHING.
I LOVE YOU <3 <3

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR COMING AND EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME.

.. and thank you for saying at least something/ sending A text message. I hope you realized that It's been 2 years.

I'll do better.

Smile! :)

2011-06-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

So there are many many MANY happenings these days that I don't even have the time to blog about them.
But before anything, I shall now blog about something more important
Something always-and-not-an-event.

This person was with me during my ups and downs,
And this person has been supportive of me in many ways
Right now theres something to give for you
And here's the little something.

♥ ♥ ♥ ^^

I love you :) good night :)

MY REGRET AND APOLOGIZE.

2011-05-28T13:28:00.002+08:00

No one can actually know what a day/ days have I been through. Really.

You have no idea how much I've look forward to this day, how much I've planned from morning till the end till the next day and how awesome I feel every time I think about it. But because of ME, everything from the morning till the end ruined. Ruined.
Dead.

You have no idea how much I want to go to the TV station or radio station and tell them I would wanna apologize to few people for ruining their day, and make some kind of firework show with the "sorry" pattern just for them. No idea.
And I'm not freaking exaggerating even a little freaking bit.
So trust me.
Well you can don't trust me because after all I've already ruined your day.

Before I say anything, I'll start with a

I'M REALLY SORRY.
to whoever you know you are.

I did not planned this, I did not WANT anything of this to happen. I frankly speaking I may feel 100times worse than any of you out there. Period.

I just never know when all these stupid stuff hit me. Like hell. Why now. Because there isn't a time. They come whenever they want to. Like usual. Like all these years.
I can never get to sleep late without food, never get to skip any meals, never get to eat/sleep whenever I want like any of you out there.
It's something like the Eiap genes.
~~except my dad~~
or dogs.

For the 10099792836481756976502378 times, I'll now promise myself

ALL I CARE MORE ABOUT IS MYSELF

1. ~~GLAMFAME~~

1. EXERCISE
2. EAT PROPERLY
3. SLEEP EARLY AND WAKE UP EARLY.

I shall be selfish till I'm 100% cured.
Thank you for your understanding.
I may now proceed to VampireDiaries, cause it has been a very emotional day for me.

And those who cared even a bit.
THANK YOU. :)

Happy birthday, love!

2011-05-23T23:51:00.003+08:00

Before it gets too late, I may now dedicate this post to someone special on this special day.

I may not prepare anything ~~sadly and disappointedly~~ , (and I'm not gonna use exam/ GlamFame as excuse), but you know my love will never change!

happy birthday!!!
and as usual, thank you for everything everything! :)
알롸뷰 <3
:)

Things have not been too good.

2011-05-21T12:28:00.002+08:00

As said in post title. Yes, true.

So mid-term is here. And I have no whatsoever great mood about it, or whatsoever motivation to study, or so whatsoever spirit to look at books - but I really do need to!

Not A paper was OKAY. The worst is I just got back my Addmaths paper 2, and pffft, I got the lowest mark off addmaths I've ever got ever since Form4. ~~Same goes to piano theory exam D:~~.
People say it's not about marks. And it looks like I never really care about it but no, if you know me, you'll know how much I wanted to win myself. (not win others - I NEVER WANT TO WIN OTHERS). But tooo bad, I just never seemed to work hard pfft.

The second unhappy thing is the sudden news. Today will be the day they leave to Korea. I still cannot imagine what will my Thursday night be like. I've always look forward to Thursday night. Not only because I love to learn Korean, but also the fun times we had there. Seriously, every single second of that class is full of laughter. And now it's no more :'(
I promise that I'll still continue learning Korean myself. With whatever books/ things-that-are-filled-with-Korean-words I have. Till the day that I dont need to look at subtitles to watch dramas/videos, yeah how cool is that!

People may not understand why are we so sad. But if you attend any of her classes, you will know how we feel right now D: I guess that's it. At least we had one YC session - which is totally funny hahah. Hopefully we'll have a trip to Korea together someday :D

From now on, I'll appreciate every friendship in my life. Cause everything will happen anytime - and everything happens for a reason. :)

선생님, 잘가요! ♥

Mid-term.

2011-05-17T18:32:00.002+08:00

I dislike this phase of life, even though I've experienced it so many times in life.
:(

Especially when you know there's so much to study, and it all falls on tomorrow. :/ I have 8 chapters of History in total, and I just finished ONE.
ONE.
On a Tuesday, I finished one T.T

I need a study group. I need to mix with people who truly loves studies, no joking. :/

BUT I PROMISED NEVER TO FEEL THIS WAY ANYMORE.
SO I'M JUST GONNA LEAVE.

I CAN DO THIS!!!!

The Pressure.

2011-05-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

There's so many things going on.
Mid-term and preparation for GlamFame.
It gets way pressured when I think about SPM this year, and the fact that I HAVE TO STUDY NO MATTER HOW MUCH I HATED STUDIES. If you know me, you'll know how much is the HOW MUCH I mentioned.
And come to think of how high people's expectation are towards the so-called "biggest event of the year" by some indian friend (not racist), makes the pressure worse.

Everyday it seems that everything is on me.

But I've been looking forward to everyday.
Everyday after school, I waited for your name to appear on the Online list.
Every night before I sleep, I waited for my phone to beep.
And that's when I feel that nothing is worth worrying.
Cause you're always there for me :) ♥

thank you :) ♥
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:)

2011-05-15T12:21:00.001+08:00

过去的，就让它过去吧。
我相信一切会更好：）

thankyou for everything.
ily :D ♥

I'm a student..?

2011-05-08T23:21:00.002+08:00

School has never become the priority in my life. Neither do homeworks or school exams blah blah.
But I know I WAS a motivated person, who will do anything I can to achieve my target in every single test/ exams. And I don't do it to prove to anyone or for any other reward, I do it for myself.

But since when, nothing is working. The fire in me died, and never light up again. Till now, I was left emptied, dead. Or worse, I tend to forget I'm a student.

It's not that I never tried. I did tried, I really did. But I just can't. I sat there for an hour and I can feel that I'm just forcing myself to do stuff that I don't like - or in a more honest way of saying - things that I hate.

I need motivation. Big motivation.
And I'm sorry.

Wake up.

2011-05-04T23:58:00.001+08:00

I want to stand up.
I want to wake up.
I want to put at least some effort.
I want to be like how I used to.

I just can't.
I really can't :'(

All the best, love ♥

2011-05-02T22:48:00.002+08:00

We all know exam is near, like real near :O.
But somehow someone important is having exam tomorrow :O ( that's not real near, but really really near :O okaysorryforthecrapshiteishalljustcontinuemynextline)

Here by, dedicating a post for this someone important

All the best tomorrow^^
And I know you can do it.
화이팅! :D ♥

Last but not least,
This is something not just for exam week, but for your everyday :
I love you :) ♥

Xx'

Michael Learns to Rock ♥

2011-05-02T19:51:00.005+08:00

They are one of my favourite bands when I was young. They have tonnes of songs that make you go "awww", and if any of you out there who is happen to be reading this, well, I bet you all know me well that I love things that make me go "awww", and I go "awww" very easily.

My last day of April was busy busy busy, but all the busy was worth it. ~~I guess~~ It was MLTR live in Kuantan! WHAT!? A CONCERT IN KUANTAN? Yeah I know right.
I was honored to be one of the ushers that night. And I actually didn't expect much out of that night cause , c'mon we all know it's Kuantan, and (I'm sorry to say this) it's an old band. But it never crossed my mind that old songs bring back more memories. Oh yeah.

That day was freaking tiring I can say. I barely even have the chance to sit. Running here and there, placing the light sticks here and there, blah blah blah. And waited for the thing to start. But I actually love the excitement of ohgoshhhhhit'sgonnastartrealsoon and the fact that you're there to prepare for the concert even though it's just in a small town.

MLTR's concert was really great. Especially when familiar songs came up and you go OHMYGOSH-IT'S-THIS-SONG!! And you started jumping and lalalala-ing cause you don't know the lyrics. I actually had the chance to shake Jascha hand but I was afraid "my boss" will scold me after that. And then I found out that I'm actually allowed to. And too bad Jascha walked back up stage D: And Mikkel - if I dont get it wrong I guess that's his name - kept flying on stage. :P

Due to the screamings, I'm now having a very sexy voice. Oh yeah.

Waiting for the bus

in the bus

(Y)

usher tag!

usher clothes!

While waiting for the concert to start. (VVIP seat :P)

After the concert! :D

Group photos!! ♥

some photos grabbed from Tiffany & JouJin's facebook.

it's a very great experience for me. And you actually get so frustrated when people tend to ignore you and give you the I-KNOW-WHAT-TO-DO-CAN-YOU-JUST-LEAVE-ME-ALONE face. THEN, you get scoled by the boss for not doing your job well. And you actually feel very consoled when someone actually thank you. Ahh, the power of thank yous. From now on, I'll appreciate every small workers around me.

thank you for reading! Ahh, the power of thank yous!

So long, April.

2011-04-30T11:37:00.002+08:00

WARNING : This post contain words formed by letters, phrases formed by words, sentences formed by phrases, paragraphs formed by sentences that may harm your eyes, brain or hands. I dont know why but I just want to say it. Oh not to forget your leg too.

Since it's the last day of April, I've decided to online and post something here. Well I don't have much time in fact. What a weekend.

I've been facing with lots of complications these days, complications between humans. Seriously, it's like the worst and most troublesome thing to ever happen, and you have no idea what to do. Yes, it's so better for BOTH humans to take a step back and look, probably we'll see the situation clearer, and understand better, or maybe put yourself in his/her shoe (whoever you're having problem with) and think why would he/she do that.
I would like to say that it's not anyone's fault, and also it's everyone's fault.
Everyone has flaws, and to live together happily, we all have to accept their flaws.
I'm not doing good in this, yes I admit. I DO gossip/ talk bad about people, or in a not-so-nice-way-of-saying - I'm a also backstabber/ faker at times, which is something I really hate about myself. But don't tell you none of you never do that..?

Admit it, we all are.
It's the matter of fact whether we WANT to change/ will change.
And I want to change.
I've always tell myself to accept every single person I meet. Including those youknowwho.
So from now on, ~~don't show any idiotic sign of yourself so I won't talk bad about you~~ I'm doing it the way it's suppose to be.
suppose. to be.

Speaking about relationship between humans, there's always the one person who we often neglect. And this one person is the someone who is always in the idontknowwhattodo situation. I call this the middle person.
When conflict comes between humans, you're not just affecting each other but you're also affecting the people around which is known as the middle person -,-

And btw I find -,- is so much cuter than -.-.

Don't believe? Please take a closer look :

-,-

so cute

SO WHY NOT EVERYONE JUST LIVE TOGETHER PEACEFULLY AND NOT QUARREL/ ARGUE/ DISLIKE EACH OTHER. AND THIS STATEMENT APPLIES TO MYSELF AS WELL CAUSE I DONT KNOW WHY I, ME, MYSELF JUST NEVER EVER SOLVE THE PROBLEM WITH THAT PERSON WHO HAS SOME KIND OF PROBLEM. ops.

I DONT KNOW WHY AM I TURNING ON THE CAPS LOCK.

I think I might get bashed up because of this post.
I shall think of a more cheerful stuff to post on later :O

Wedding ♥

2011-04-29T23:25:00.002+08:00

My classmates said that my blog is boring, cause some times, they just don't understand what am I saying about.

For example,

THIS :-

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You know what, for the first few times I used this, people actually thought that I'm banging the keyboard but actually 4('9?\$09(\:@7*[;6-,.%7)2%=|\~7="

Sometimes I don't tend to write for other people to see. The most important thing is for me myself to see, and also for me myself to express. Yes, whenever I'm feeling nostalgic/ a little bit of unhappiness, I tend to reread all the previous post of this blog, or sometimes - even my previous tweets.

They somehow tend to make me happier - or sometimes sadder.

whee.

But who cares because you know what?

Because 4%7)20(77601#!!600000`# :D

♥

ops :)

It's the RoyalWedding today!! AND YOU KNOW HOW MUCH OF A DRAMA QUEEN I AM, so it makes me love wedding very much.

but no i did not witness the ceremony thanks to tuition kthxbai

OH AND BTW, 4\1`(:-`4(["@7*\}70*?;-2!!4^3\\| :P

9 years with Rain♥

2011-04-24T18:02:00.003+08:00

It all started 9 years ago, on this day, his first time on stage, performing his first song - Bad Guy.

9 years ago, he was just a lost guy trying his best for a breakthrough.

9 years later today, he is known worldwide.

and flying to US today to attend Time 100 Gala party! :P

I didn't know this person 9 years ago, but I started noticing him when the Rain's Coming concert fever went BOOM in Malaysia in 2006. One of my biggest regret BUT awesomely I attended his concert last two weeks :P. I know I talked about how cute/ handsome/ hot is he. But the truth is, those are just small little thing that matters to Clouds. We support him / love him, because of who he really is, because of his determination, perseverance, the sufferings he went through and never gave up, just for two reason.

1. to never be hungry

2. to fulfill his promise to his mum who passed away years ago.

Every time when I watched his interviews/ documentary on his path of success and everything that he went through, it's either I cried or I "aww-ed" many times. It's hard to even imagine that the world star we're talking about went through all those hard times. It's not about how awesome is he, but how much has be an inspiration and motivation to all Clouds around the world. Truly.

Today, Clouds around the world are celebrating his 9th anniversary as Rain.

The name that changed his life.

I don't know what will happen during the 10th anniversary cause he won't be around since he'll be in military service real soon =/, but we Clouds will definitely support him whenever and wherever :)

Congratulations!

Happy 9th anniversary Ji-Hoon :D

*YOU WILL BE WITH ME LONGER =)*

the 5pm

2011-04-24T17:29:00.003+08:00

it's either 5pm or 12.30pm that I'll be looking forward to on Saturday/ Sunday.

youknowwhatImean.

So it's 534 now and I'm happy :P

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GOD IS GOOD.

2011-04-22T23:13:00.002+08:00

APRIL TEST IS OVER!!!!!!!!!! i'M SO FREE RIGHT NOW I CAN FLY.......................not.

Yes test is over but I'm never forgetting that Mid-term is coming ohsosoooon :O. I not just need to prepare for mid-term, but there's so much of preparation to be done for GlamFame! It's coming so soon and I'm so nervous at the same time excited! I know we've been facing lots of obstacles these days but everything will turn out well as long as we believe! :D

So Revo Kuantan is over! And I gotta say that everything rocked well! All thanks to You Lord :).

But at the end of the day, it's not about how awesome is Revolution, but how awesome is OUR GOD.

It's obvious that whenever this sorta event happen, everyone post everything everywhere about how awesome this is how awesome that is, but who would actually really understand that, God is not just there for that few hours, or few weeks, but God is here with us forever. God's love would never failed us. Like, never.

But how many of us would thank God just for a little small blessings in our everyday life?

We're Child of God everyday. We shall always acknowledge His presence and give praise for every single bits in life. Even during tough times, even during great times.

You know He loves us - everyday :)

God is good, all the time.

And all the time, God is good :D

Thank You!

It's time for a change

2011-04-16T15:46:00.004+08:00

ONE WORD :

AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight is the big night! :D

10th of April 2011 - I met him.

2011-04-15T14:52:00.013+08:00

This post is typed on 11^th of April 2011, was about to delete it due to some reasons, but decided to continue it/ edit it/ post it up on 15^th of April 2011.

BEFORE I SAY ANYTHING..

I HAVE TO THINK.

CAUSE RIGHT NOW.

I CANT THINK.

Oh shite sorry, let me start this whole thing again.

Hello, my name is Suexian. And last Sunday I went to...

LAME.

OKAY OKAY THIS TIME FOR REAL.

LAST SUNDAY WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! * yeah this sounded a little more like myself*

Everything was awesome from the beginning to the end! Okay not really, it was really frustrating and pissed me off when I was waiting like hell. But well, everything was worth it in the end. I'll now tell the story of last Sunday.

Before I say anything, well,...

I know there ain't any Fans who are going to read this post - cause sadly I don't have any Clouds who are my friends. Frankly speaking, it sucked not knowing any Clouds. It sucked to be the only one who is whooohooooRain out of so many people you know. I'm naturally born to be someone who screams for singers that I like. It sucked even more if someone took my fangirl spirit away. Not everyone will know what does it feels like to be a fangirl, so if you have friends who is a fangirl, please ask them before you judge me. I know this is annoying if you people don't like Rain, you guys can just leave. I post this up because I have no one to share with so bear with me. I'm really sorry :P

Last Sunday was something special. Got up in the morning after a late night of karaoke session on the previous night. I love karaoke session in KayElle. All the new songs are awesome to sing, but disappointed for they don't have Grenade! Rawr. Anyway back to the story, went to La Bodega for breakfast. One of my favourite place cause I can play one of my favourite game. - Taboo. :D

Then off off we go to Sepang. Got caught in the jam but it wasn't too bad. Parked near the stage which got me so excited. Dang I feel excited even right now -.-.

stucked in the jam

Saw this everywhere around KL!

ARRIVAL!! <3

So, yeah, we were actually quite late so there ain't time for me to visit and look around SIC, I just managed to take one picture.

Waited for the bus which is suppose to bring us to our gate, but we got tired of all the waitings so we decided to walk. Okay we didn't decided to walk, my sister's bf decided to walk so we just have to follow.

I tell you what walk is that.

That walk - is like the longest walk I've ever walk. I don't know how long have a walk but I think it's around an hour. It's like climbing the Pelindung Hill for many times cause it's quite slanting. I was sweating and my legs are sore. But I tell you, the successful feeling and satisfaction when we saw the gate F in front of us is AWESOMEEEEEEEE. We were already an hour late for the race so we reached there at 5pm - half dead.

And blur about the race.

It was happening - though I have no idea whatsoever thingy that's going on there, but I know some people die to go there. So I still appreciate that one hour race. I somehow feel happy when we all stood up and cheered for the winners.

WHEEE XD

a place where my dad and bro are sitting

F1!! What an awesome race! Overall it was so exciting and awesome I can cry! I kept screaming and OHMYGOSH!!!!!!!!!

ARE YOU KIDDING ME THAT'S NOT THE MAIN POINT TO THIS POST.

6pm. Nervous and excited. The gate opens at 5pm. Which means if there IS any crazy Rain fan girl waiting for Rain since early morning, I'm doomed. Wanted to wait for the bus to bring us to the stage area but HOW I LOVE MALAYSIA AND ITS SUPER DUPER AWESOME SERVICE - I decided to walk , again. Which means, we actually walked the entire SIC that day. *claps hand* Yes I feel proud myself.
I was already exhausted, tired, hungry, thirsty, and frustrated. I keep having the thought of what if I reach there and there's only the last row left, what if I can't be in front and I can't see Rain in a close distant? I don't even want to think. But I tell you again, the feeling of arrival is AWESOME.

It makes me wanna cry wth -.-

ARRIVE ONCE AGAIN!

And thank God that there ain't that much crazy Clouds there, and YES, I was on time, and I was in front!

The waitings were terrible, horrible, ~~vegetable.~~ They played clubbing songs for like, an hour. And everything got dark, we started screaming, and guess whattttttttt..........!

NO, NOT RAIN.

Some Forbes model thingy stuff blah blah ~~shite~~ was happening on stage. No, it really does pissed people off. I mean c'mon, 90% of the people there stood for an hour just to get a glance of Rain and they want us to wait and watch some stupid thingy?

I admit everyone was being rude cause we never really care about them. We boo-ed them and kept screaming " WE WANT RAIN!". Seriously, If I'm the one on stage, I don't know where to put my face.

Luckily it ended fast.

But still no Rain was seen.

All sorts of emcee came up and talk including Dominic Lau from E! News Asia, and I dontknowwhat rapper thingy DJ blah. Okay no one knows them, but it's definitely not Rain haha.

Dominic Lau

I guess that's a reason for all those waiting, cause the more you waited, the more excited you feel when IT actually happens.

And that's what I felt.

OMG I CAN'T TALK ANYMORE.

Okay sorry.

I still remember the moment Dominic shouted The One and Only Korean Superstar Rain and all the lights goes off. The opening of the concert was 100% exactly like the opening of Rain's The Best Concert 2011 Asia Tour. The feeling when the screen shows the word Rain and light goes off again, and spot lights shone again, and someone popped out on the stage.

The so familiar posture/ facial expression/ face/ voice that screams "Are you ready", I've seen that 1000000 of times on videos. And last Sunday, I saw it with my own eyes.

Rain was on stage singing Rainism.

shite. My heart just skipped a beat.

sorry, I'll still continue.

I know it's stupid to say this, but I actually cried. Okay not the OH NO IT'S RAIN I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF IT'S TOO UNBELIEVABLE kinda cry. That's too much -.-. I guessed I cried out off excitement and the fact that I've waited very long for this. Thank God he's tall, if not I think I can't see him that clearly.

I've always LOVE Rainism's dance and that was the opening. ARGH.!!! I actually had a hard time watching Rain cause everyone was so tall and I'm so short. I never once got upset about my height until that night. I tip toed and looked through a small hole just to see Rain, but once the person in front move a little, I have to find another hole to peeked in.
Things got better later on. Thanks to Rain who squat down which makes it even HARDER to see him. My sister was like OMG LOOK LOOK LOOK, but I couldn't see anything. And thank God that the two man standing in front of me are good people who notice the short me and let me go in front for a better view.
Yes, I keep going in front throughout the whole show. Oh yeah.

It's raining !

Loving the fireworks!

I still remember the moment when he took off his shades and how wildly the Clouds screamed - including me. People teased a lot about his eye I know, but that's one of his biggest charm to us Clouds :P

Next up was It's Raining, another famous and awesome dance step. It was really awesome I tell you.
And another song YOU with sexy dance with sexy girls.

Then he started talking. I remember him saying " I LOVE MALAYSIA!!!.. but it's so warm." :D Then he teased us with the towel. He started wiping his sweat on his face, the crowd was already screaming cause we ALL know Rain's technique on throwing the towel to the Clouds. Then he made an attempt to wipe his armpit which makes the crowd screamed wilder. I wonder what did the girl who got the towel do to the towel?

Rain talking

He sang Not a Single Day, and somehow that performance made me love that song more. It feels so soothing listening to it live. AND WHO SAYS RAIN DON'T KNOW HOW TO SING!? His live is just like studio version, definitely!

Not a single day

How to avoid the sun came up next. One of my favourite song, and also one of the famous song.

The guitarist started playing Rasa Sayang when Rain went backstage to change. Everyone was singing along!

Rain appeared again!

I actually thought he would SING that song but nah, he came out and went for another song - With You.

He taught us the dance step and it was fun following it. OMG I MISS IT SO MUCH.

Then FRESH WOMAN!!

After the song, he came to the front stage and sang a few lines of Hip Song.

The crowd went wild when the song started playing, I WENT WILD. I've always loved that song whee! Not to mention that seriously awesome dance step of the song. I can't believe I watched that performance live!!

He went back in and they played a video clip of Love Story MV.

Yeah we all know he died in the end of the MV, people started "Aww-ing" when they showed the scene where he got killed-..-

When the music of Love Story started playing, I melted.

AWESOME TO THE MAX T.T

Then he sang LOVE SONG! ♥

Awesome dance!

Something that I ain't happy about is the he restrained his famous "body wave" dance to that song. Like seriously I was waiting and waiting but he didn't do that much of it, and guess what..? It's because Malaysia said it's too sexy -.-

We all went disappointed when the Rain announced that the next song would be the last song - Friends ♥. I still remembered me and some girl beside me screamed NOOOOOO together -.- Nope I don't know that girl lol.

Friends !

He said goodbye.

And right after that, we shouted encore.

He is awesome cause after alllllll concerts I've went in my life, he's the only one who never let us wait long for encore.

They started playing a VCR of Back to the Basic which include the clip of him getting his MTV movie awards, and him talking about how he won't forget where he come from.
He sang two of his debut song - Bad Guy and Instead Of Saying Goodbye. ♥ WITH awesome dance-off :D

Bad Guy

Dance-off

Love the confetti!!! It makes me feel happy :P

THANK YOU!

It was really sad when he said goodbye. That one hour plus was really unbelievable until now. People might say it's JUST A CONCERT, but to me it's not. It's not just something that I've waited by going round and round the whole Sepang International Circuit for few hours, it's something that I've been waiting for years. 6 years to be exact.
That day, I was away from home for like 10 hours, and I think I've only sit down for an hour plus. It was terrible - seriously. But everything was all worth it. I didn't feel this way when I met LeeHom or DavidArchie or KevinCheng, I guess it's because I started off being a Cloud before I even admire any of those mentioned.

He's leaving this September. Clouds around the world - including me, will be waiting for 2 years till he finish his military service. Yes, it sucks just by thinking about it. But I'm sure that once in a while there will be some news and few photos released.
No, never enough to last for 2 years.
But what can I do, after all he's still a Korean.

It's confirmed that this won't be my last time meeting him.
I'll be waiting for your next arrival :D

last but not least

Rain in full uniform!! For the shooting of his new movie Red Muffler :D
I can't wait!!

Always. ♥

2011-04-11T22:35:00.001+08:00

I saw Rain yesterday.

But you know what's better than Rain?

YOU ♥

And I see you in me everyday ♥

♥

Kuantan ♥

2011-04-11T22:12:00.002+08:00

I'm finally home.

Kayelle is always a fun place to go. Most of the time I had fun there, unless I'm stuck at home. But you know what's best?

I place where my friends and family are - Kuantan.

Most importantly, I place where you are ♥

I miss you & I'm home ♥ :)

2 days and still counting!!!!!!!!♥

2011-04-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh, this is so hard to say. Here it goes.

IT'S THIS SUNDAY MEANS IT'S ONLY 2 DAYS LEFT TILL I SEE RAIN!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥!

I keep forgetting that I'm going KL tomorrow and that it's THIS SUNDAY. Cause it seems so unbelievable that I'm going there! :O Dang I think I'm gonna cry :3

I know I haven't been updating very much lately. This is so not me!

So before I leave Kuantan, I'm gonna try to blog an interesting post. Okay not really. But at least there are some words for you people to read.

I'm thinking really hard WHAT TO BLOG, and I don't wanna end it here.

But I really ran out of words :/

grr. I hate myself for typing such short posts

♥ ♥ ♥

2011-04-03T21:28:00.004+08:00

I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue :)

It brings to only one conclusion :

______ ♥ :)

#43#%43#(

idk why but you sound a lil moody just now

you know i'll be here for you :)

iloveyou! x) ♥

It's less than 10!♥

2011-04-01T23:38:00.002+08:00

April 10th is coming soon! I can't wait!!

I'm surprised that I only got 6 posts in March - well that's if I didn't remember wrongly.

Today is suppose to be an awesome Friday. NO, NOT REBECCA BLACK. Well, it was an awesome Friday till the line plays trick on me and ruined my night. This emotional thingy sucks. I think I'm the most "typical girl" girl ever exist in the world. And I just realized that every Friday night isn't great - never great.

Bye bye long post.

I HATE FRIDAY NIGHT.

14 days left! ♥

2011-03-27T19:09:00.002+08:00

I don't know how many times have I said this but : humans are weird. Or life is weird. We app know God wants us to accept everyone around us. But what if that person itself is a backstabber or whatever that may harm you, are we suppose to accept them too?
I never like hypocrites.
And I never want to be.

But I guess sometimes life is a little bit of lies everywhere.

Lord, guide me.

P/s : I have to accept school.

FRIDAY!!!

2011-03-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

THERE'S SO MUCH TO BLOG I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START!

Okay, slowly and one by one.

I think I'll use the so-called-old-technique-that-I-use-before technique to blog.

FIRST POST.

Witnessed the whole SPM blah blah ceremony on Wednesday. Well, you can say that I skipped 2 periods of class for that but who cares. The whole thing was awesomeness. It feels like 100 times better than when I went to take my PMR result. Seriously. It feels like I'm the one who took the results that day - which also makes me feel that I don't need to study anymore cause I've finished my SPM. Okay just joking ~~not really~~ . It actually gave me the motivation to do even better. I've been very study-sucks minded ever since last year till now. And I guess that really just have to go. A+ is like.... freaking hard. I even have problem getting A- and so on, not to mention A+. But what to dooooo, I've always wanted perfection in everything - but sadly I never work hard for it.

Yes, when will I.

That's why, I now promise that I will not only try my best to finish homework, I will also study smart for.. well, for myself. :P I have faith in every single SMKAA 2011 SPM candidates, and we WILL break the record like how we did for PMR! :D ♥

SECOND POST

I would like to tell a story about one group of dead people. This group of dead people meets up every year - most of the time deadly. But at one point of that period of time, something seemed to struck them and they got alive again. But this year, it's extra dead till the extend that we cannot be dead again.

I'm gonna be honest here :

Usually every year, this group of people is like the purpose I go to school, they are like one very very big part of my life, of myself. But this year, it feels like such a frustrating thing to even mention the group of people.

And the reason why I am still here is, I still have hope in this group of people.

Everyone of us plays a big role. And in order to make this group of people alive again, all of us have to be alive - including me, which I.. really ain't alive all this while. Those juniors/ new members probably don't experienced that feeling yet, and I so wanted to tell them how awesome this group of people used to be, how awesome and proud were we last time to be part of this team. Indeed very proud - one of the happiest thing that has ever happen to me in school.

And I'm waiting for the day when this group of people wakes up and get back the us.

We all wanted to win.

At least I still do.

THIRD POST

So as I happily announce that my dream came true. *please refer to previous post*. Sadly, one of my dream may crushed cause of that dream come true. Watching Rain up-close or watching his REAL concert from far away? Eventually it's hard to make both come true and also hard to let go any one of them. Since I've been waiting for 6 years, like really 6 years, I don't even wanna think about me missing any one of them.

But thanks to the impatient me who couldn't wait to tell my mum about the good/bad news, I've been told straight to the face that I'm not allowed to fulfill my second dream.

I actually took this very seriously once I got "rejected". But I felt better after thinking about all this while I've always got what I wanted, materially. I guess they are all right about me being pampered by my parents blah blah.

Yeahhhh, you can't always get what you want.

All I gotta do is to close my eyes and ears till the concert fever is over.

And I'll wait for the next concert after his military service! :)

AND SO THIS IS MY MESSY POST.

I actually still have AN issue to share but, due to some reasons/problems/things to deal with, I don't really have the mood/time/mind to put them into sentence.

Thanks for reading this messy post.

OH OH,

AND BEFORE THAT.

THIS IS ACTUALLY ONE OF THE HAPPIEST WEEK AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY.

ANOTHER THING IS.

I ACTUALLY FOUND MY FORM 1 TABLE! :D

p/s : this post does not contain any emoness. :P

The end of fun.

2011-03-20T20:42:00.003+08:00

I know I haven't been updating much lately - which is SO NOT ME. But uhh, I dont really have much to update about so yeah.

I decided to blog because today is the last day of holidays and I won't forgive myself if I don't blog. I can't believe I have to wake up early tomorrow and go to school. I don't think I'll enjoy tomorrow for I did not even touch my homework :/

Here by I have a good news to share.

I shall now throw away the regrets of 27th January 2007 and wait for the arrival of 10th April 2011

Suexian is going to see Rain Live in Sepang F1 concert :) And not to mention I have the chance to be in the most front row as long as I go there and wait early like a mad kid :) - which most probably I will :P

Yes, I'm trembling once I think about it. I mean, I've been waiting for 6 years and I never thought I would have the chance.

But sadly today, something happened.

which I don't wanna talk about it. Let's just hope my mum will be extra generous if that thing really happens :/

So overall my holidays are okay. Some days are awesome and some days are like hell. But well, sad to say that everything's coming to an end. :/

I hope I survive.

Happy schooling :)

p/s : i lovee you. :)

♥

2011-03-14T21:36:00.003+08:00

this is a cacat-ed love.

sorry.

but it means a lot.

i love you♥

p/s: belated 16 moths :P

Do you ever feel..?

2011-03-09T20:57:00.003+08:00

Wednesday :) A tuition-less day. Probably the only tuition-less weekday. It was a great day but I guess the emotional phase and the emotional weather affected me a lot. So I'm quite a sensitive person today. I do apologize for that :/

Things have been hectic. I just remembered that my piano exam is few days away. Days - countable days. I don't wanna flunk it but I'm telling the truth - I'm not even 1% ready for it. I'm not even 1% ready for anything in this world. Not even BM lisan - which is tomorrow. But I know all the I'm-not-ready stuff will be over someday. It's the matter whether I'll say "I should have done better" or "I did my best" after those stuffs.

I never like the first saying though.

Anyway, I'm here to announce that I MIGHT/MAYBE give up on the chance of making 27th of January 2007 come true. It's not that my mum doesn't let me to, but since everyone is saying it's not worth it, well... yeah. I would need to pay like a whole lot of money, watch 3 days of i-have-no-idea-what's-going-on-oh-is-that-a-car? F1 race, bearing with hot weather, just for that few minutes that I've been waiting for ever since ages. It's not the best choice to let it go. But, argh that's it.

Probably no one would know how does it feel like to give up on this last opportunity before his leave to military service. That means I gotta wait for more than 3 years to meet him ~~again~~. I still remember the first thing that I've ever really request for something in my life is that concert ticket in 2007. The first and I failed to. Awesome.

I believe everything will go the way it suppose to be.

And I believe tomorrow will be a better day. For me and for everyone else. I don't wanna complain anymore, maybe try my best not to express any sadness, cause nothing good ever comes out of it.

Let's pray for tomorrow. And for everyone :)

God bless you people.

p/s : I need Him.

This is weird, but I miss this fella.

HAHA. :P

march.

2011-03-04T23:19:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it's already the 3rd month of the year.

The first test is over, and sad to say, I'm quite disappointed with myself. I don't know why but this time is seriously something different. Normally, even though I did really bad, and even though I FEEl really bad about it, I never ever ever, have the thought of start studying real hard.

not this time.

I think something is telling me that I'm not going to make it if I don't. Yes, I know this time I did not just badly but REALLY FREAKINGLY BADLY.

not in the mood for blogging.

bye :)

Monday.

2011-02-28T17:58:00.003+08:00

Today is obviously not a good day.

Don't ask me why. I apologize for I'm being a very emotional girl today. Don't mess up with me. Thanks.

I woke up not feeling the great day, thanks to the nightmare. Ended up getting yelled at for still lying on the bed at 830. 830, man. Suddenly all sorts of piano examination/ Bm oral/ English oral/ chinese oral/ Moral folio came into my mind. All this while I keep telling myself that I'll do things one by one. But today, I can't. Cause I realize things don't come one by one, they come to you all at the same time, and is expected to finish them off at the same time. You tell me how.

Yes,

I heard your answer : - do them earlier.

Before you say that, please realize who you are talking to.

I know it's my fault

Moving on,

I finally found something that cures. And just when I thought the day is getting better, my iPod died. Just like that without warning. That's why I gotta sit in front of this stupid comp - whom pissed me off this morning cause apparently it's having PMS and dont let me turn it on.

I wanna say "I hope tomorrow will be a better day."

But then, I realize tomorrow is a schooling day.

I'll still hope for a better day tomorrow. I guess I'll feel better when there's more people around me. I'm just not the me now you know.

Yeah.

Next thing to think of :- the I-totally-forgot-I-gotta-memorize-chinese-proverbs-and-copy-them-for-tuition chinese tuition.

Hooray.

the long break.

2011-02-27T16:36:00.004+08:00

I've decided to make it up for my blog since I've abandoned her for quite some time. Well life has been busy with interesting stuff and also boring stuff. Apparently I didnt really care about the boring stuff, but deep down my heart, I'm screaming "Oh Shit" every second cause I know I can't avoid the boring stuff that long.

So I've been into YouTube these days. YouTubers are just freaking awesome - and funny.

The first YouTuber to introduce is...

the all-of-you-definitely-know-him Asian Youtuber

Ryan Higa :D

His videos are simply funny :D And the best thing is, his videos are all low quality (except few), not much of special effect or props, and yet he still made it as the most subscribed YouTube channel :D. Do click on the link to check out :D

The second YouTuber is...

the awesome ShaneDawson!

I didn't really like him at first because his videos are kinda disgusting. But then my sister introduced SOME videos which really really have its own meaning. I mean, he's not just funny, but he motivates people and send messages through his videos, which is awesomely awesome :D

SO, I've been sitting here for like.. Many hours. And I have not done a single important boring stuff that I have to do in this comp. I am so dead by Tuesday. Yayy :D

ohhhhhhhhhh btw,

I love you, you :D

♥

CNY

2011-02-27T12:37:00.012+08:00

FINALLY I'M BLOGGING ABOUT CNY!!

CNY eve

CNY Day 1

CNY day 2

Moral folio day

Day before WK's birthday

Phuket Trip

I'M LAZY TO ADD CAPTIONS :P

Sparks fly.

2011-02-23T19:09:00.004+08:00

ohhhh How I miss this blogging thingy. It's been long. Hi, blog :)

So today is the second last day of the first topical test! :D One more day left and......

I'LL BE EVEN WAY MORE BUSIER THAN NOW..

Screw those orals and folios to rush. Dangg.

There's a whole bunch of thing that I would like to blog about. Things such as CNY, Phuket trip, picture post and blah blah blah. But this is just like a... post to not make my blog die. So nope, you ain't gonna see anything here except for words.

It's time for dinner and I'm hungry. So I better leave now and... wait for my dinner to get ready. Oh dang.

Goodbye loved ones! xx'

Hecticness.

2011-02-18T22:33:00.003+08:00

Due to the very busy schedule that I'm having - because I'm a senior now so, yeah, even if I'm not busy I gotta act busy -, I know all readers may realize the lack of update of www.suzzane-love.blogspot.com . p/s : I don't know what went wrong in my mind when I created this URL.

YEAH,

but after all of those stupid schedule,

I STILL GOTTA DO SOMETHING WITH THIS www.suzzane-love.blogspot.com

First , I've changed my font - again. YES, there's so many choice with fonts right now. Thank you Blogger! :D

Then, there's this special post to post about :

You are awesome and I LOVE YOU :DD ♥

Cross-run Country ♥

2011-02-16T12:16:00.002+08:00

That's right. It's cross-run country today. And I'm currently sitting on my bed. Oh yeah, I skipped school.
It's not that I want to. I know I'm not suppose to and I really regret skipping school today. But I just woke up with a terrible stomachache and tada - there goes. Good thing is I don't have to worry about being alone during cross-run country anymore. But what in the world, I actually don't care about me bein alone anymore :S
So conclusion is : skipping school today is a very bad choice :/

CNY is coming to an end. Yet I did not have enough fun. I don't know why those super huge parties are either I'm not invited or I'm not around to join. I guess that's just meant to be. Oh well, everything's over so it does not matter anymore. At least I still have SOME great time during CNY :D. And we completed our mission yesterday! :D.
Speaking about fun, I think I should stop having fun for a while - though I didn't really had fun.
I think it's probably time to study and do homework and do moral folio or whatever. All I know is I'm very dead. Very. Very. And I don't wanna imagine the result.

I can predict me crying and screaming and complaining the day before exam starts.
And I'm not gonna change that.

Nahhh
I shall use this extra holiday to finish off my homework and stuffs. Including piano work, and maybe moral folio. Wow, what is wrong with me :O

It's the end of the world!!

2011-02-13T00:30:00.001+08:00

You know why?

Cause ohmygosh, I did NOT update.

Happy rabbit year ♥

2011-02-03T00:49:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year :)

Watching homevideos make me emotional. Okay I know I'm emotional in all ways. I cannot describe how much things has changed over the years. Maybe it's all for the best? I don't know. But it's over and I can't change anything, but just move on and get a life. Oh yeah, I have a life :)

I should prolly just thank for those wonderful things in life. Whether it happened/ is happening/ will be happening. It's all for the best. Thank You Lord, for everything :) ♥

I don't know how's the future gonna be like. I don't know whether I'm gonna be around here ~~I seriously hope I won't~~ , but oh well, who knows. Sometimes we can't actually do the things we want. Sacrifice is always needed when you are living in this place called earth. Ahh, what am I graphing about.
I'll just accept whatever God gives me.

P/s : Shane Dawson is awesomeness ♥
P/s : happy cny love, I love you :)

February :) ♥

2011-02-01T21:30:00.009+08:00

It's the second month of the year! Say Hi to February :) I hope you treat me good cause I'm doing my best to treat you the best I could :)

30^th January 2011

Had a much awesome time :) went to make a big decision that morning and did not regret. At least I won't be called lion for quite some time after this. Oh yeah man. I'm going to miss my messy hair for sure... well, not really :)

at melanin saloon in Megamall

spot me!

when everything is done, went to AppleK for the first time with the two girls in the new look. Both of us haven't really go out together for quite some time. AppleK's sound system/appearance (?) is wayyyyyy better than songbox like 10 times, but I guess it's the song choice? Oh I don't know. I can't say that they dont have a lot of songs but, maybe those songs aren't MY songs.

So finally we stepped into megamall, after so long. Can't believe we used to hang out there all the time. Funny how everything changed so fast.

♥

Went to Ezekiel's house for partayy at night :) Awesome time I had there. Felt so awwhh for going home without taking enough pictures :/

The girls! ♥

Joyce's weird pose

The "guys"
raksasa!

Joyce oh Joyce.

Camwhoring during the "rockn'roll session" :P

whee :D

This is what I'm talking about

CUTIE!

I love 'em all!

AND ALL OF THEM TOO! :D

Thanks to my parents who weren't at home when I'm on the way back, we get to be the first few to enter JR's new home that he's been talking about ever since ~~Form2~~Form 1.

And it surely does make us look like kampung girls who just came into the city.

And he's excited himself!

The most impressing thing in the house

and to brighten your day,

I now present

1^st February 2011

Went to ECM with the bunch, I mean like, REAL bunch. lol. Ended up watching Paranormal Activity 2 :O. It was actually scarier than the first but well, I really really did expect a lot more from the ending. I mean, it's to sudden. I won't even know it's the ending if they don't turn on the lights -.-

Boo.

But it's still a great choice and I had a great day :). Love going out with everyone :D. Let's do it again :DD ♥

CNY eve is tomorrow. It's my first time in Kuantan and I'm wondering what to do :O

Ohgosh I suddenly cant wait for more fun ahead. ♥♥♥ !

The first Holidays!

2011-01-29T21:08:00.002+08:00

Hello folks! I know we've all been waiting for this wonderful arrival of HOLIDAYS :D ♥ I'm not a fan of CNY but I am a big fan of holidays :) Cause it's when I don't have to wake up early and face teachers and rushing homework. And I can sleeeep whenever I want :)

The last week of school was pretty much awesome. I've finally met the best English teacher one could ever find - and she's teaching my class! ~~temporarily~~. I'm no kidding about the best English teacher and no exaggerating because she IS awesome :D. Let's hope that some things changed and tada - she'll be teaching us for the rest of the year.

Despite one particular small thing that happened this week in school, everything was pretty much awesome :D. At least, well, awesome :). But sadly, come to think of it, it's like I don't really have much time of fun and outings during this holidays. Gosh it's so short. Gahh.

And I HOPE I won't do last minute work anymore, if not I'll be seriously dead.

Like real dead.

I guess that's all?

Dang this blog is getting dead day by day.

Simple and meaningful ♥

2011-01-24T00:10:00.002+08:00

This post is full of love ♥.
first of all, I'm dedicating this post to a person I named love ♥.
and the message from me to love ♥ in this love ♥ post is :

I love ♥ you :) ♥

Thank you for the love ♥ , love ♥ . :)

The third week. ♥

2011-01-23T00:13:00.003+08:00

Hi :)

Not really knowing what to write here. Just, expressing I guess. I'm not emo, in fact, I dislike emo. And the worst thing is being with people who emos. They can emo whenever I'm not around but please dont emo in front of me -.-

Uhh, what was I suppose to talk about again? Oh yeah! School! So school was.... *background voices* ENOUGH OF SCHOOL!*

FINE.

I don't know why did I had this conversation about the past and how fast time flies just now. But it really did make me feel.. nostalgic. And by looking at those past photo albums, wow, how much things change. I didn't used to think my Form 2 look was way younger than now till I saw it today :O ~~I looked so cute!~~ . It's only like... yesterday, we were a form 1. Not knowing anything about secondary school. And now we're Form 5 where those juniors will be like : wow cool seniors. Well, that's what I used to think when I was a junior :D.

I don't know why but somehow I still never feel like the SENIOR. None of us are actually. We are all so.. childish :D

Now it's 23rd of January, and February is coming real sooooooon. I can't wait for more fun to come, but yet I don't really wanna leave everything.

Awh, humans are always like that.

I wanna leave studies in secondary school, but not the fun in school.

I'm gonna miss them all.

1 Cekap 2007 ♥

2011-01-22T23:40:00.002+08:00

It's random.

But I just had a chat with this friend and we mentioned about it. :)

It's been so long.

I still can't believe it.

My Wish.

2011-01-22T22:06:00.001+08:00

Dear 5 Cekal,

I have few requests.

1. Play crazily.

2. Play crazily.

3. Play crazily.

Thanks :)

엠블랙♥

2011-01-16T17:53:00.003+08:00

The awesome result of the awesome mentor Rain - MBLAQ rocks :D

What's up with me not blogging? :O. I guess it's the end of the world soon. :S

School! The second week is over. To be honest I actually think that I have more fun in school compare to other places. I think it's just because of that ONE scary and very stressful tuition that affect my mood D:. Nobody will understand except us! I so very wish to stop it but, how can I right? Despite that, I.... I think everything is beyond OKAY. I guess :). ~~I just cannot accept it :/~~ .
Everything is so rushing. Everyday is so packed. I barely have time to touch the computer even on weekends. Drastic change. Urgh. No one likes that. Not to mention the fact that I don't fancy any study thingy. Boo.
I just really really wanna do many things that I like/ enjoy. Not, these.

But sadly, whenever I wanna have fun, a lot of oh-suexian-you-still-got-tones-to-do/ hey-you're-form-five-now-quit-playing thoughts struck me and took away the steam. Sucks. Before form 5 I actually told myself to have way more fun than before cause it's my very very last secondary year - unless I go for form 6, which I don't see that coming at all. But it seems that everyone is cutting down their fun and all. C'mon, let's play? :/

It takes time to love new things, so it takes time for me to love form 5. Maybe I do, but I just expect very much more out of it.
everyone please play with me.

알면서♥

2011-01-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

I wonder if I ever put that as title before.

안녕하세요. :) I'm currently sitting at my study table doing some stuff that I don't like to but wowww I am doing it :). Had a bad time going through pain today but it is all taken away by now. Thank You Father :)

The first weekend is gonna end in fee hours time. Boo. I've been waiting for weekends to come ever since the first day of school. And after today, I gotta wait for another 5 torturing days till weekend starts again. Torturing. And it's just the first week :/.
Weekend is so packed with all sorts of homeworks :/. Thank God I don't have any weekend tuition unlike the others. I dont think I can survive by then.

I guess thats it.

Confession time;

2011-01-09T00:41:00.002+08:00

One of the saddest thing is;

I've now have no intention of talking to you anymore.

How sad.

p/s : I was suppose to have a long long blog post today butttttttt, well things changed :)

Senior Year ♥

2011-01-02T23:52:00.002+08:00

It's hard to even think about it, and you're telling me I have to accept it.

Yes, I'm starting my senior year tomorrow. I three whatever that I feel like bringing in my bag, I hope what I bring is useful. But it's okay if it's not cause, well, I don't wanna bring an empty bag on the first day of my senior year. ~~because I gotta be a role model to my juniors~~ . Oh my Gosh, now that I think of it, I don't really know who my juniors are! D: failed failed. Thank mefor not being friendly enough.

ANYWAY, I decided to go for this post because, well, I just wanna post something before this school thing starts. ~~who in the world knows what's school?~~ And after today, I won't be so free anymore. That's when tuition and all the works and books come. I dislike them all. I got no choice :(. Hectic and busy life filled with dislik stuff, how sad is that. And not to mention that schoil I study at is famous for pushing students. Let's just hope youknowwhat. The only good thing in that school, is students. Awesome students like US. Wahahahagha.

Okay I'm done complaining.
I'm not disliking the first day of school. I just thought that tomorrow is going on and there's no turning back to holidays till the next hols come and school is gonna start again.

But I'll accept it. At least. Let's all surrender to God and let Him plan the best for us.

Happy schooling students! :) ♥

2011 ♥

2011-01-01T23:56:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! BEFORE IT STRIKES 12.

HAPPY 1.1.11!!! :D

HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE HAVING A GREAT TIMEEEEEEEEE :)

Well, I had an awesome New year eve like REALLY awesome one. Cause I spent it all with all my loved ones :) ♥ ♥ It was a rather - emotional night for me. I've never actually felt like that before during new years, especially midnight. But, oh well, I think it struck me that time really really flies. And I never want that to happen. It's too soon.

But I'm still happy to have everyone :) and for everything that I've gone through :))

picture time!!

I'm lazy to put caption HAHA..

OKAY..

2011!!! Resolution!

# Never stop praying never stop believing never stop smiling! :)

# Draw closer to God.

# Wish everyone I know happy birthday on their birthday this year. It's important okayyy.

# Straight A ~~PLUS~~ booooooo.

# Uhh...

# erm.

# OKAY that's enough.

# I know I got so much more but, why must I say -.-

SO BYEEE LET'S FACE 2011 TOGETHER AND MAKE IT ANOTHER MEMORABLE YEAR! ;) GOD BLESS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU ROCKING PEOPLE! :D YOU'RE ALIVE FOR A REASON! AND TO YOU, DONT FORGET, I LOVE YOU ♥

RE : 2010

2011-01-01T22:11:00.012+08:00

Hello folks! It's my first post in the year 2011!!

*opens champagne* LET'S CELEBRATE :D

Okay before I go to my new year eve. I shall STILL talk about 2010. Cause I feel bad not talking much about 2010 on the previous post.

2010 is something special I can say. Yeah.

I shall say that, I was more - alone this year. Not in the bad way. Uhh, not in the good way too. Just, neutral. Haha. Friends drew further away, nothing really last I can say. But I know it will if we all work hard for it. Oh well, I guess we all didn't.

Try not talking to a best friend for one year, hard?

no not at all lol.

ANYWAYYYY,

It's true that when good things come, some things gotta go. YES, even when the SOME THINGS used to better. But I guess it's just life? We won't actually know what happens next. And everything is possible - though it may not seem. We just gotta pray, have faith, believe, and live as fully as you can - right now. Cause it's all we really got.

AND MORE,

this year was the laziest year of my life. Oh yeah. Honeymoon year? Well not really. I just lost interest and lost direction/ breakdown and sorts. I'm a teenage c'mon. But to be honest, I'm blessed and that's something I cannot deny. God plan things for me, and He gave me what I have right now. He gave me what many people in this world don't have. I have SO MANY people supporting me all the time. There's nothing to complain. But, I just do.

Cause I'm a human.

And that's gotta change in 2011.

OH DANG IT IT'S ALREADY 2011.

I'm not that confident to be frank.

But thank God - though I have no idea why, I feel so much better these few days. Wheeee. I guess it's building again :)

last but not least,

2010 rocks :)

HIGHLIGHTS OF THE YEAR.

- I'm trying to make it according to the time but well, I tried my best lol-

I don't remember what movie we watch but yeah.

Jocelyn's 16th birthday!

and dressed up time! xD

♥

the swimming moments!

RE:UNION! ♥

Jr's birthday

4 Cekal ♥

AND THE CHOIR MOMENTS

ROOTSTREAM HIGH ♥

and this is what we got ♥

which leads us to craziness..

.

and here

♥

but there's always a last day.

and a last McD meal.

END OF CHOIR MOMENTS -.-

drama!!

End of year partay.

Levites! LOL

Christmas eve.

Okay DONE..

Here, I would wanna present a beautiful picture!!

tada!

ohh, sorry.. Not this.

TADA!

SO BEAUTIFUL RIGHT? XD

that's it.

Hello 2011 :)

Adieu 2010 ♥

2010-12-31T16:08:00.002+08:00

I've never been waiting for this day, but time just never waits for us. 2010, has come to an end.

Talking about 2010, there are many things that happened, many things that changed. I've learnt a lot a lot a lot, make close friends out of non-close friends, and even meet new people out of Idontknowyou people. I shall say that, I did most of the unexpected things in 2010, things that the old me wouldn't have done.

Also experienced serious major breakdown - without no good reason -.-. I guess that's why I'm a teen.

Surprisingly, I got nothing big to talk about 2010.

WHAT A FREAKING SHORT NEW YEAR POST WHOOHOO.

but there's something I would like to shout here.

RAIN'S "ADIEU 2010 WITH RAIN" CONCERT IS TODAY!! :D Someone please bring me to Seoul :) Thank you.

GOOD BYE 2010.

Grenade

2010-12-30T22:42:00.002+08:00

Oh song oh song, please go away.

I'm seriously having a big problem chasing songs away from my head, like forever.

Hey people, can you believe the date? I can't. Like serious? Is tomorrow the last day? YES. And am I seriously having early tuition on the last day of 2010? Sad to say, but YES. awh.

You know normally end of year's posts will be more about the sadness and the memories and what happened and everything that I've learnt and everything that has changed throughout the year. Or about the determination and the spirit and the hyped up feeling and of course - resolution for the new beginning of our life. And I've been wondering whether I should post all of that traditional post today or tomorrow.

I think it's better left for tomorrow.

So yeahhh,

2010 is a year which..............

TO BE CONTINUE.

Don't wanna leave?

Fine.

Then I'll post something else.

Let's complain! :). Cause I wouldn't want my last day of 2010/ 2011 to be full of complaints, so i'll just complain like, now.

SCHOOL IS STARTING LIKE FREAKING SOOOOOON!

NOOOOOOOOOOOO D:

That's number 1 on the list of things that I cannot accept, and never will. Seriously? School? Who in the world likes school D: Not to mention I'm not even 0.00000000000000001% prepared for the hectic and boring life of school. Let's just pray for a GOOD principal. That's all I'm asking for. Oh, and GOOD teachers too. Ohh, SPM just struck me suddenly. I think I'm gonna be sick.

Enough of complaints.

Wow, that's short. Not bad :D

내 남자친구 :P

2010-12-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

#1 - He's awesome

#2 - He's more than just awesome

#3 - which makes him awesome awesome.

#4 - Have I mention that he's more than awesome awesome?

#5 - which makes him awesome awesome awesome.

#6 - last but not least

사랑해 ! ♥

Before it's too late/ early.

2010-12-28T20:26:00.003+08:00

This post is for a young boy who just turned 20 this day/ maybe later cause the difference in time zone - but i don't care for this moment.

Posting this on 28th December is good enough :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID ARCHULETA! :D

Let's just scream looking at this picture :D♥♥

I'm a Cyborg, but that's okay ♥

2010-12-27T20:00:00.002+08:00

Until now I have no idea what is this movie talking about.

Google it and you'll find a cute awesome guy with funny hairstyle with an ugly girl.

Watch it and maybe you'll kill yourself or something. I dont know.

Christmas is over!

how sad.

Time really flies like WOW. It's exactly a week left till school starts! CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT?! This is really going to far. Uhh, I've suffered enough on studies during Form4, and I dont even wanna think about Form5. I bet it's 100000000000000 times worst :/ So, let's pray for strength. And pray for the whooohooooafterspm feeling cause apparently, it seems like no one experienced it this year.

Don't you think it's like you've wasted 2 years if you don't get that whoohoo feeling? :/ Well to me it does.

So bye :D

:)))

2010-12-25T20:23:00.002+08:00

What's the best Christmas gift?

~~two awesome T-shirt + Kisses chocolate + Christmas card~~

YOU :) ♥

thank you ♥ :)

and iloveyou ♥

so people, let's share and give, most importantly - love :)

Christmas;

2010-12-25T18:32:00.001+08:00

surprisingly, I'm feeling very dizzy right now. Very, very dizzy.

Okay so it wasn't as great and it's actually boring. Thanks to slow loading videos. I think I shall play ZumaBlitz instead.

Merry Christmas :)

MERRY BLESSED CHRISTMAS!♥♥

2010-12-25T15:49:00.007+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! :D ♥

It's one of the best season of the year. The day of loving, sharing, giving, and caring. :)

Happy Birthday Jesus :D ♥

So I had a very awesome Christmas eve night with humans :D. Was feeling very down/ lonely these few days which I don't know why. And now all those feelings - including feelings of day before yesterday - has drop down to 0.000000...........0% :) Thank You Lord :D

It's been long since I have a picture post, so let this be it :)

Ini YueJia :D

this guy with his hand stick out, left half way and never come back. BOO

Ini Saya :D

Ini Mereka :D

Ini kami.
ini pun mereka. :)

Girls :D

Happy with my party pack :D

but he's not.

at least he's happy with his glowing whistle

epic xD

last but not least,

all of us ♥ :D

Things will get better :) I belive :)

HOME

2010-12-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

♥ I love this song all over again!!

HELLO FOLKS! IT'S CHRISTMAS EVE! AND I'M DOING NOTHING.

as usual :)

I don't know why am I having this same feeling everyday these days. I just feel that I need to hang out with human beings, but I guess there ain't that much time before youknowwhat starts. Don't, it's too painful to mention it here. And I think you all know what is youknowwhat.

We all dislike that.

I can't imagine this.

I'm so dead :(

THAT feeling.

2010-12-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

There's this feeling all human brings experienced before :

The regretful feeling and unsatisfaction of not preparing properly and not doing things the way it should be done, and you know you can't go back and erase it or make it right again.

I experienced it tonight.

Not getting better.

2010-12-22T19:38:00.002+08:00

I just got bored waiting for loading videos so now I'm here, again.

Like seriously? WHERE IN THE WORLD IS MY LONG LONG LONG LONGGGGGGG POST?

I understand if there ain't any readers anymore - or there never were.

Like seriously? Something is definitely wronggggg with me x(. I need some activities. FUN activities. Before the torture of 2011 begins, please let me enjoy :(. Or maybe I should say, let myself enjoy by not being so moody/thinking so much/not being myself.

Big apology to everyone out there - if you guys are worried/ love me too much/ don't want to see me acting this way - Just a reminder to you folks : Sue xian is a human. ~~A girl, to be specific.~~

Tomorrow is a oh-no day. Confidence, come back like how you used to conquer my weakness last time. Faith, I need you. Lord, help.

munch munch.

2010-12-22T17:16:00.003+08:00

I'm blogging while munching Luxury biscuits. :)

I'm finally back from KL. But I guessed it's so not the perfect timing. Everyone left when I come back :(. *sobs* I don't think I've ever felt such loneliness in my life before. *crap*.
Sorry people, it's another major emotional breakdown in my life.

2010 is coming to an end. No don't worry I'm not talking about the end of 2010/ new year resolution/ reminiscing 2010/ welcoming 2011 yet - it's better left for the real END of 2010. I'm just gonna say that : Time really flies. I can't believe I'm a senior next year - when I still look like a kiddo and act like one. Honestly, I'm never matured.

So anyway.
bye.

I miss my girlfriends!

.. and I miss you..

.

2010-12-20T00:13:00.001+08:00

My current life is awesome to the max.....

...if there ain't emotions in this world

I need to be a cooked egg.

Only You ♥

2010-12-18T10:35:00.002+08:00

♥

I'm currently sitting on the bed, about to prepare going out but the event was delayed, and further delayed. Sad.

Im not even a form 5 yet but trust me, I kinda feel like my spm is over and I'm like thinking and planning about how my after-spm will be. I really forgot that school is like, few weeks away - ONLY. And I don't even wanna think about it. Sucks.

Some things just ruin my freaking mood.

Like Falling Stars.

2010-12-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

I don't know why is this song stuck since.... well, long time.

So hello, I watched Narnia, had a great time in the mall, apparently was called crazy girl by someone cause I laugh too much.

Yeah I did actually.

NOTHING LAR.

NOTHING TO BLOG LAR.

BYE BYE LAR.

p/s : 46499097601# :(

You are so, Beautiful ♥

2010-12-15T14:34:00.001+08:00

We all have a dream.

Let's just skip the crap.

I'm going to make my dream come true. ♥

LastChristmas ♥

2010-12-14T19:04:00.001+08:00

Christmas is around the corner, any plans ? :)

none for me.

blah.

Okay I've come to this page because I'm so bored. Now that I've finish VampireDiaries and all urgh. I think I should really really think about.. stuff.

I'm weird ain't I?

Don't have to answer that, I know the answer.

bye

Damon Salvatore

2010-12-13T22:37:00.004+08:00

Mason : " We haven't really met. I'm Mason Lockwood."

Damon : " Oh hey! Damon Salvatore."

Mason : " I know, heard great things about you."

Damon : " Really?! That's weird, cause I'm a d**k."

Ohhh yeahh.

So yeah, I've been filling my time with thoughts in my mind and school is gonna start real soon which makes me wanna scream right now.

Please excuse me.

*SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Sorry.

So..........

uhhhh...........

What was I gonna say again?

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm gonna watch VampireDiaries so bye :D

p/s : This is love♥

whee! ♥

I'm done!

2010-12-10T23:56:00.003+08:00

Finally finished watching after so long of the Fugitive break due to the I'mSoUnhappyIt'sFinishing sadness.

*thumbs up* :D

Though I expected more in the last episode - especially more romance :P - but the ending is sweet enough wheeee :D. I THINK I'M CRAZY.

wheeeee.
Don't you think actor/actress always have fun filming stuff? This proves that working together for something is a fun thing :D

Okay so now back to reality,
well,
erm.
Nothing much to say :))

p/s : 4\"#`!<]`\:*2`%%=\;3*2`(<;(462\{-4(#']\0/,>(7!`= :P 4%7)20

악수 ♥

2010-12-09T19:24:00.003+08:00

This song rocks ♥

Something I don't like about myself is whenever I'm in fever of something - example Rain, Glee, LeeHom, DavidArchuleta or whoever/whatever - I ONLY listen / watch stuffs that are related to them. Yes really. And I can repeat one particular song thousands of times the whole entire day. Something is definitely wrong with me, I can say.

But that's not the point to this post.

Whenever I talk to my parents - sometimes, they tend to talk about things that I already know and do not want to remember/talk about it, which is what exactly happened today.
Before saying anything, I have a confession to make : The truth is, I have no confidence in everything - well, most of the things.

I remember when I was young, I wasn't actually like this. Yeah they were right. When I was young I actually put everything in everything to make the best out of everything and to win everything. *you know when they say this, it made me feel like Rain xD*. Well, not anymore.

I wont say not anymore, just - not that much anymore.
Who doesn't want to make the best out of everything? It's just that as life goes on, I find that there are more things to make the best out of, and I don't feel powerful enough to do so. Or should I say, I'm tired doing so. Looking so much of other more successful people makes it worse which actually should be motivating me more but nah.

I shall now think of my future and the path I should go next time after form 5. Cause, I'm totally clueless right now.
When I actually wasn't clueless.

Off the Fugitive!! Finishing tonight whee! :D ♥

I Had The Time of My Life

2010-12-08T22:50:00.003+08:00

Aloha :)
Well, I've never said that before.

So just to blog again saying that, well, nothing much. Yesterday was a great day in a place where 2 years of memories are filled - awesome memories. Had such a great laugh with the folks and yeahhhhhhhhhhh. We rock. Today rocks too and wahhhhhhhhhhhh I can't believe I watched Ju-on for the don't know how many times. I hope I can remember how many versions of Ju-On there is, I think I've seen them all -.-

How brave I was last time (Y)

That's all then,
bye.